People are funny.
Eyes open wide,
For men on pedestals.
Though these pretty boys,
Are not aware of their existence.

People are funny.
Screaming their lungs out,
Over a living doll on stage.
When a thorn pierces his finger,
They'd scorch the bush with rage.

People are funny.
What is the point,
For I see no winning here.
But the fairies of lines,
They'd always be near.

Bless the fairies of lines.
For they can be whatever,
Anything your heart desires.
They'd sprinkle some pixie dusts,
Their quirks you could admire.

Bless the fairies of lines.
For they'll always be there,
During rain or shine.
They never leave my side,
To tell me that all is fine.

But then my eyes are open.
Not just pretty faces,
For real talents they possess.
Even street rats in the sewer,
They treat with kindness.

Now I can see.
The heroes of this century,
Wingless angels sent from above.
But could this be another trick,
From an illusion called love?

Pixelate my heart.
For I am a mere child,
Not ready for the truth.
No matter how tempting,
I won't take the forbidden fruit.

Pixelate my heart.
For these imaginary boys,
I feel safe with them.
This is where I belong,
Where I can embrace my freedom.

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I'm trying to say that I am a weeb, used to hate on real guys, and now that I like them too I feel quite conflicted because I got bullied a lot by them as a kid and I am an asian so people are still kind of misogynistic or at least have those stereotypes of what women can or can't do. What I like about anime guys is that they are not real, I don't feel dominated by them in fact it's the opposite. But when I start to have feelings for real people I feel like I am stooping down to be like those teenage girls who 'worships' idolsthat's willing to do whatever for them although I am aware that idols are humans with flaws too, but the fact that I have a crush on them makes me feel vulnurable and I hate that I feel like I am lowering my defence on them.
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