(Inspired and based on the book with the same title by Amber Smith. It is a story of a girl who was SA by her brother's bestfriend one night as she was sleeping in her room. She does found a man she loves, but they come to separate in one point of the book.)

And there I stood holding my breath,
thought I would have died
before anything would come to an end.

And my body was aching from all that pain.
I could have choked and he didn't know,
he was killing me that way.

I sow the aftermath of it.
I had lost something and I couldn't speak.
I had lost that something within.
He took so much from me!

I just.. I just tried to sleep.
I don't know what he did to me.
He turned me in something I hate from all of it.

I can't hold it on?!
I'm so stupid!
Why the hell I didn't speak just to say a single word?!

He and me can not be in one thought!
I feel sick!
So sick of the way he did it and had no regret at all.

I tried!
Tried so much to leave that all behind,
to take it as a nightmare ,
but it was the reality that changed my life.
All of me from outside to inside..

I pretended to be all I wasn't,
trying to hide and leave that night behind.

I turned into someone I said I wasn't
now they were right I think, when I look behind.

I see in the mirror and hate the thought..
the spark in the eyes of this picture,
is something I no longer hold.

And time passed by
with the days I sleep in my rooms cold floor,
and I'm using my body as a tool, to take back all.

Even the thoughts that I love..
the man who made me feel empty
when he was gone.

The one way I had to let go,
I found in this life he was the one who asked
and heard me tell this secret I used to hold.

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