Shallow as I am do I need a reason for the way I am?

Weird as I could be do you need an explanation? You feel jealous now wait for my creation.

I might have grown my roots now but wait until I rise.
Self confidence down the drain it's all because of you and now I sit down in a disguise.

In my deep thoughts and you wanna know what I'm thinking about, if only you knew.

Feeling...