ain't been sleeping much 48 hours up getting prepared to hit a lick 4 more bandz stacked up again word from a Wiseman know the place and platform then take all that u can no hesitation hesitation gets u killed or caught never fear death when u got no 1 left but will be dead before I get lock up so that a fucking fact care bout no 1 because they'll always hurt u love no more because u love ounce but 2 year getting to know her just to find out her father was fucking on her get a call from her at 3 am she saying she loves u but never said it back cause I felt like a monster from all the shit I did told her I'd see u at 10 AM got thier to find her in the tub full of blood 6 cut in her arms 2 across the wrist I dropped to my knees screaming while I hold her screaming help help while her father has the needle in his arm I told her ill be back in a sec bay crying my eyes out run and gots a phone Dailey 911 as I ran back to her holding her till the paramedic got there pernounced dead on site couldn't let go of her paramedic had to pull me off never got to say I love u too bay till it was to late she was my whole world and life after she died I started to self medicated purple drank whiskey pills and all only 14 when I lost the only person that got me Trust no 1 cause that's the code I lived by since I was 7 in the coke game cause every bodyvi love bother sister homes and all r gone now I'm stuck off drink and pillis and making money with nobody 20 and still don't know what or how emotion work in a way some what a kid but not really so much pain in me getting ready to let go of my bay Nov 1 2021 hardest part letting go got to
to better myself hard as hell but gots to be done exhausted of the shortness of breaths each October 20th to November 1st followed by crying with a hard frustration of blame of saying for 2 hours of sorry I couldn't save u exhausted to much to give a fuck tired each day waking up from a night terre of the day I seen my bay mixed with the night I forgot my strap and lost my non blood fam waking up grabbing my head straining with out crying so I got to let u go bay sorry I couldn't save u love miss u Ashtin see u again 1 day