how much must I have lied to myself
in order to completely
and utterly forget who I am?
who I was
who I wanted to be

nurture me into the soil
wrap my face in tinfoil
cut my flesh until I recoil
I'm going to stay in bed today

greed and avarice
fluorescent solitude
did I grow up too fast?
or maybe just too fucking slow
at some point I just woke up like this...