Yes! I am scared

When I started swimming against the tide,
With all of my emotions that I can't hide,
I knew it before hand,
It will take years for me to find some piece of land,
it was nessary to start this test
When I started I knew I can't rest
But when I exaust, all of my strength
I got scared, thinking how could I end
Tired, exhausted and totally wrecked
Fears strangled my...