I won't cry because I don't have it in me
My tears well up behind my eyes
But beneath my toxic pride
They quickly evaporate and dry

If I was not strong enough
There was no one to save me
So I saved myself a million times
All the while I died inside quietly

And if you would ever catch a glimpse
Of the sorrow that lives in my soul
And all the dead things that drag me down
Or the sacrifices I've made for it all

You would see the fear of failure
The dread of not being enough
Or the lack of self confidence
That is covered up by all this other stuff

You would see that each laugh
Is seasoned with pain
And...