Chaos is fond of her
because
she's not like others
who treat chaos with
worry,frustration, tangled.
But
she's the one
who treat chaos as a best friend
with smile and brightness in her eyes.
she's the one who cherish chaos
and flourished herself fully.
she's the one who admire chaos
and always trying to learn .
she's the one who live with
chaos care freely and adapt to better.
she's the one who love chaos
and try to understand it .
because
may be chaos is just like her
which is reflection of her internal battle
full of confusion, uncertainty, euphoria,
messy , but yet with little hope that everything happens for a reason. .
For her................
chaos give her a fresh breath of air
when she's feel suffocated.
chaos give her a sense of belonging
when she's feel that she's doesn't belong anywhere.
chaos give her a sense of aliveness
when she's feel like dying.
chaos give her a sense of existence
when she's feel like she's doesn't exist.
She believe that............
chaotic period is a phase of her life
which make her feel sooo viscerally
alive every single day........




© Raindrop