I won't say having you was heavenly.

However it was a blessing of imperfection.

the leading cause is walking this soil we become spoiled tainted by sin.

Me and you grandpa I noticed we tended to spite that.

we never laid down against life we would fight back.

Our bond was a slanted with the origins of our connection it wasn't aversge.

Far from the norm yet your strange love made my heart warm.

we bonded through shared dysfunctions, you knew my thoughts of the streets.

How the drugs can walk you like a dog on a leash.

I admire your last known stature you faced down both beasts.

You threw off that leash walked out the streets and never turned back.

I'm just like you it took prison to see my wits risen from my euphoric cage and that the thug life is not for my days.

Your the reason that's it's becoming my season of shining a light.

I'll aim it at the world through my legal dreams.

I made a vow to stick with clean money.

I tightened up my loose screws with plenty more work to do.


Since you passed all I feel is regret biting at my back.

Regret because I didn't chase down and solidify what we had.

Last time I seen you before entering your sickly state we had wrecked to a violent halt.

It was my routine habit of dishing out disrespectful that led you to the breaking point.

The breaking point of excusing me from your life.

Now that I'm more mature I see your reaction as justified.

It was tough love that you stood on.


Sorry it took you preparing for the next life to see the beginning of a mind set to do right.

I'm working for fulfillment and making you proud.

I hope one day your up there saying wow! He really made it to the peaks.

Dear grandpa I'm not excusing myself from my actions I know I was hopeless back then.

I know you knew my passion in those years as a way to fight my demons.

I was crazy fighting demons with a demon.

I would creep I would crawl tossing trust and love from my family aside.

Creating that issue only adding to our broken family being in need of more tissues.

My next course of action I'd choose to hide because I was stifled by my pride.

We're similar in our pride its hard to admit when we're wrong.

That's not the strong macho man way is it?

I know your stubborn standards.

The way you set your mind to it and your intensity your focus you just didn't seem to lose it.

There is no persuading with you no matter the topic you fiercely grope and grip your truth.

That's what drew me to you that's the bottom line of what I find highly admirable about you.

Your strength you must've passed along to me.

Because since you passed it hasn't been a blast your kids are bickering between each other.

The family remains divided into sects and factions.

The older generation and the young ones even they provided no answer to this shattered equation.

They were more into subtraction when the answer needed to be solved by use of addition.

I stepped into the role of peacemaker instead of my infamous past of peace taker.

I took that leap of faith and look where things are as of today.

I'm learning to connect with those in the family I swore couldn't stand me.

I know you will see me standing no longer am I kneeling cowering to life accepting defeat.

I'll take that strength you imparted to me and it'll never depart from me.

I hope your proud of me fixing what I broke mending the wounds of the past.

I can feel your approval from here.

I know great grandpa will be glad nodding his head in respect.

I know your gone, regardless I'll consider you near because your in my scarred and busted heart.

Dear grandpa tighten up because I know heaven needs some fighters like you!






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