I know I make mistakes
stupid and careless
I cry on non-existent scenarios
fall for small things
maybe there is a lot of time
maybe not
and I know there is a lot of shit I cant go through again
but get me a goddamn time machine
because in my head its all ending
love it or hate it but I need it again
all the times I got hurt, all the times I wish I didnt exist
because in between those times there were days I can never forget
the smiles, happiness, joy
the little kid who dared to dream
the little kid who wasnt scared of falling
the kid to tween to teen, the drama, the gossip, the hate, the love, the everything
want those years back
want that life back
from the day my eyes opened to today
want to relive every second
like a tape on repeat
someone get me a goddamn time machine!
want to go back to every single second
there were bad days
but I know future aint any better
I'd rather relive every moment again
the moments to me that actually mattered
cant go ahead, just cant
its difficult moving infront
used to curse the present which is now the past
cant believe I want to go back
I need your help doraemon
please give me the only gift I need
every second that I am leaving behind
is coming to me saying
that it wont get any better
so I just want to live the best thats gone behind



© ~notyourfavperson