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I can’t wait to meet my next waste of time
2023 was a Mountain, climbing it was hard. So i kept all the pain to myself for I miss seeing me come alive in a thousand different way then I impugn my character while tryna make sense of all this overwhelming year. What i did was insinuate myself ahead of me for i had high hopes that the view on top is worth it!
If only you knew what my mind is telling me to do. I've been trying so hard to survive, sometimes i think i wanna die, mostly because i feel so guilty 'cause who I am isn't enough and there are many things that I could change so slightly.
God why would I succumb to something so unlike me? I'm still breathing through wounds with their knee on my neck.
You may think my thoughts are worse than anything but frankly speaking, losing faith it's a lot to handle, not even allowing me to make my case, and having to regret my days of living with every fiber of my being.
I don't wanna wake up and feel insecure, I wanna feel love inside my hands again, I just wanna feel beautiful.
I think that I am an amazing fighter, I've never seen anyone battle like I have with the demons of my past, the fears of the future. I've seen me grow, I've seen me change, I've seen me push through. And I've seen me been brave, I've seen me struggle and overcome the suicidal thoughts and it's night of the soul. But then again, sometimes I'm shy, and I'm anxious, sometimes I'm down on my knees, sometimes I try to embrace all my insecurities
I know am the bravest men I've ever known, but I'd use a little laugh, I don't wanna get used to pain anymore, I don't want these tears inside my eyes, I'm sick of covering it up, I'm tired of feeling so broken.
They say when you tremble and trust, you are brave, I say I am brave, and I'm strong because I muscle on though I know my weakness, I know my filthy but still I trust, and I hope to wake up every morning, just to walk forward even though the demons of my past and the fears of my future took a smile off the soul.
I'm a fighter I've never seen anyone battle like I have. I've seeing me come alive and I am amazed how I'm growing, how I'm changing so inspiring to me
I'll build my own independence
I know sometimes I feel lonely could do with the company to get me high when I'm down
If only you knew what my mind is telling me to do. I've been trying so hard to survive, sometimes i think i wanna die, mostly because i feel so guilty 'cause who I am isn't enough and there are many things that I could change so slightly.
God why would I succumb to something so unlike me? I'm still breathing through wounds with their knee on my neck.
You may think my thoughts are worse than anything but frankly speaking, losing faith it's a lot to handle, not even allowing me to make my case, and having to regret my days of living with every fiber of my being.
I don't wanna wake up and feel insecure, I wanna feel love inside my hands again, I just wanna feel beautiful.
I think that I am an amazing fighter, I've never seen anyone battle like I have with the demons of my past, the fears of the future. I've seen me grow, I've seen me change, I've seen me push through. And I've seen me been brave, I've seen me struggle and overcome the suicidal thoughts and it's night of the soul. But then again, sometimes I'm shy, and I'm anxious, sometimes I'm down on my knees, sometimes I try to embrace all my insecurities
I know am the bravest men I've ever known, but I'd use a little laugh, I don't wanna get used to pain anymore, I don't want these tears inside my eyes, I'm sick of covering it up, I'm tired of feeling so broken.
They say when you tremble and trust, you are brave, I say I am brave, and I'm strong because I muscle on though I know my weakness, I know my filthy but still I trust, and I hope to wake up every morning, just to walk forward even though the demons of my past and the fears of my future took a smile off the soul.
I'm a fighter I've never seen anyone battle like I have. I've seeing me come alive and I am amazed how I'm growing, how I'm changing so inspiring to me
I'll build my own independence
I know sometimes I feel lonely could do with the company to get me high when I'm down
