It is no longer about the lipstick on your shirts,
Nor the text messages from the girls,
It is no longer about you sleeping out,
It is about the distaste in your voice when you talk to me,
The distance in your eyes,
The disgust in your tone.
It all reminds me on my failures.
I failed when I picked you and everybody else
I failed when I stayed up late and imagined a future with you
I failed when I thought we were a perfect match.
I failed myself when I said I do.
I regret the days,the months and the years shared.
I hate the fake concern you showed
I regret the days,the nights and midnights we shared.
I miss you but I will not run back to you.
I hate myself for being there for you
I hate myself for pitying you
I hate the movies,the cuddling and the love we made .
Deep inside I'm broken
Like a lonely bird I'm burdened
I want to erase our memories
But memories won't stop bringing back more memories.
I hate that I adore you this much,
But I love that I sure will rise!!
LYNNWRITES💫
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