It's been three months now,
Since i tried ending my life,
I thought things will change,
But life was just like usual
Everybody minding his/her business
Business trips as usual,no love
I wished i just died,i regretted why?
Why did they save me?why did i meet angel?

All i ever wanted was to find peace
I just needed a place to find joy
A place i can atleast call home
A place where i will be loved
Find someone whom i can call my own
That's what i all needed,
Or was i asking for too much?
Or maybe i didn't deserve any of those?

Loneliness was slowly killing me
I felt empty,i felt drained,i was sad
Emptiness was all i had
I no longer felt safe,fear engrossed me
My joy had already vanished ,
Depression became my friend,
Cutting myself became addiction
Atleast to ease my pain

"If i poison them,maybe i will be happy,
Or maybe kill them in their sleep,"
"No you can't do that,they are your family,please you are not a murderer,"
"What if i kill them and commit suicide,
I will finally meet Angel again,"
"Do you think you will be happy after killing your mother?"
Brain cells at fight,which one should i listen to?

©️Mum's Dota
Bleeding heart❣️