Your life was all figured out
I had no idea who I was
You studied and worked out
I struggled finding the words
To say your beauty really stood out
As I came home from work covered in dirt
You always wanted to be a mom
In my notepad I was too engrossed
I couldn’t see past my pen
To see your eyes had a tint of loss
I wanted music as much as you
But had no time to give you proof
I wrote the lyrics for “truth”
Feeling such a liar
We made timeless love right by the fire
You were warm and I was cold
I loved the stare of those sapphires
As rare as the beef we’d have
When talking money and bills
Thinking back, man
Gives me the chills
I remember talking
‘Bout dreams we had
I would give you everything
Be your husband
I’d be a dad
We never argued
You never left
But I’m waking up in this cold morning
Here alone
With my songs playing
No one listening
My mind racing
Thinking back when
You used to match
Your heels to my sneakers
And make the meals for us
Label them and just
Send me off to fight
Off the world and I
Didn’t realize
What we had
I forgot you were my biggest fan
My open arm
When I needed a hand
I was trying to do it all for us
I just needed time but
You gave up
I can’t blame you
But, it was so damn hard
When my favorite thing
Was ripped apart
And we shared a heart
We fucked around
And we broke a heart
We couldn’t breath the air
If we weren’t near
When I had you there
My worries disappeared
Should have burned my pads
Should have used my pen
To certify our love
And make some wedding plans
F**K!!! (punches the wall)
Sometimes a dream entails
Letting go of what you care
And god damn
It felt like death
When you said I love you
But I can’t ruin your plan© Ray poetry