Everything is out of pure imagination, 🌌
I create constellations in my own sky, ✨
It's not my fault you see me this way, 🖼️
Is it New Year's yet I ask? 🎉
Cause the season just seems to stick, 📅
I'm all me, seeking for a holy revival, 🙏
My past feels more like exes, 👻
Tunnel vision, fading away, 🚇
If only you knew who I was, 🤔
Are you gone already, were you even there? 🚪
Hurt my feelings, 💔
Stack them pile like broken dishes, 🥣
I try to be logical, but look I sent my therapist to therapy; imagine that, 🛋️
It's like the sky is falling down. ☁️
I'm that girl in New York, meant to make my dreams come through, 🏙️
But I can't let you break my heart again, 💔
My bloodline trickles like sand through the hourglass,🏖️
From the start, I had a bad feeling, 😞
Call me the queen B with no throne, 👑
What was I really made for? 🤷‍♀️
We're all out here eating each other, each passing day, 🍽️
Typical history of man replaying itself, 👥
But you can't catch me now in this cycle, 🕰️
Though I'm closer than I was before.👣
I just crave a feeling,🌟
See, like serene angels in Tibet,👼
There's murder on this dance floor, 💃
My heart laid bare,💉
The blonde, dwelling in a world of my own, 👩
Miss misogyny, not the 1975 vibes, 👩‍🎤
It's all about everything, 🌍
Everywhere, 🌏
Always, 🔄
Champagne kisses adorning my cheeks,🍾
You'd lose me every time,💔
Because I liked a boy I feel like a hanging tree, 🌳
I'm in a daydream, 💭
Where I see Heather's dangling fate,👧
Now in my cozy sweater weather,🧥
Where do we go now? ❓
I'm not one of your girls, 👩‍🦰
But I get high and write songs about you, 🎶
I'm light as a feather, yet I run for the hills, 🦢
I'm dying on the inside; soñar breaker, 💔
Is it over now? ❓
There's nothing you can take from me,that was ever worth keeping, 🚫
Take me home, follow the country roads, 🏡
When I got close to you, don't break my heart, I said? 💔
But you turned a deaf ear,🚫
You claim you're gods, yet you look like a bad tattoo, 👿
I did something wrong, perhaps in a distant story? 🗼
It's been 18 months, 📅
I still need water, to quench the flames you ignited,🚒
Teach me kindness, to let go of greed,🙅
To have an elastic heart. 💖
I bleed, yet you claim love is my burden,💔
I knew you'd be trouble, wreaking havoc on my soul,😩
You broke me first, but yeah, 💔
I'm just one of the girls, 👩
Took the long breath on my solo run, 🏃‍♀️
It was a perfect night, an apocalypse, 🌃
A night to remember, 🌠
You could start a cult about how to love someone, ❤️
With a big dumb heart, 💖
You put a sign out; boys beware, girls like me don't cry, 🚫😢
As I get older, 🧓
I feel more like Alice, as my life goes down down down, 🕳️
Isn't it obvious, I'm battered up, 😔
I won't be something to remember, 💭
Fading away like passing strangers,🤷‍♂️
Yet, nothing's really brand new,🆕
The radio sounds my intrusive thoughts, 📻
My love is mine, all mine, 💕
Shameless as it is, 🙈
Until I found you.❌

© camvickbone

**This poem may not make any sense to most. I just feel hurt and lost in this world of mine**