My days are long and my nights are short
I ain't never experienced this life before
Im fighting my feelings, I'm fighting my thoughts
every day I fight my demons, are you fighting yours?
Every day its a battle against my own damn brain
it was on the news, so the whole city now knows my damn name
you'll never truly know my goddamn pain
I reside in Britain, but it doesn't feel so great
I'm from England but I don't feel that brave
if anything, I feel so very ashamed
I feel as though I'm trapped in a nightmare but I'm wide, wide awake
I am gasping for air, as on self-hate, I begin to suffocate
I feel as though I died; no one wants to resuscitate
all I want is help, for goodness sake
another dance with the devil, I wouldn't want anyone to take my place
I just got to keep it to myself and take it day by day
I wish I could start life again and completely change
just one more wish - I wish I could retake and erase my mistakes
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