With one hand I will embrace you,
but with the other
wander.
As a traveler through the mists of time.
My leaving will not be any kind of escape.
For sure though it will not be meant to harm you.
From the very beginning of what I am,
I know not where to start.

If I could only shine nearly as bright as you.
Stop me but a breath away,
to stealthily destroy my hope.
If I could live as anything but this.
I would break as a wave upon the shore,
everything that I once was.
Not so long ago, I wasnt guided by what was expected of me.

Confused from trying too hard to be myself.
When I've no idea who I am or what I want to be.
As angry as emotions will let me be.
Why should I have to be your best?
I refuse to ever live your life.
In a past life I think that I was far more than what I have here become.
Once upon a time I had not a single worry to speak of.

There was once a time that I wanted only to leave.
Rejoicing in never coming back.
I will always run away from me.
Hiding into myself to try to escape me.
Making sure to never look back as I drearily go.

If I could only shine nearly as bright as you.
Stop me but a breath away...
© Josh Selby