haunted by thoughts of what could have been my life,

thoughts of how I could have done things differently,

how I should have known better....

haunted, haunted...

I find myself lying awake, having sleepless nights,

night terrors are always the worst...

how can I escape my own mind,
how can I pause these thoughts,
who do I tell, who do I talk to,

who do I trust..

when I don't even trust myself