I would say to my friend “ If I die ,” and she will quickly stop me , not wanting to hear what I have to say , but if she let me finish I would say “ If I die young ,bury me in satin and lay me down on a bed of red roses”

I would say “it’s not because I’m yearning for my death , but when the panic and anxiety attacks onset it feels like maybe this is the time it’ll lock off my breath ….

Scary feeling if only she knew, the torture it is to stay alive and live like this and fight and fight, while...