Am I all in on my own pain?
Is it all just in my head, in my brain?
Is there anything left of me to remain?

All my negative thoughts & feelings I always contain!
Feels like it doesn’t matter there’s nothing for me to gain!
What if I’m better off not being sane?

Is it better to feel insane?
Feels like my mind is under so much strain!
How much longer can my mind continue to sustain?

Feels like my head is going right down the drain!
Sometimes it feels nice hearing the sound peaceful sound of the rain!
Mentally we wish we could break this chain!

I cringe even just hearing my own voice!
Have always hated myself feeling like there’s no other choice!
If I disappeared I feel some people would rejoice!

Am I just being dumb?
To these demons will I finally succumb?
Seems they beat to the march of their own drum!

In my head a tune I’ll just sit here and hum!
Feel like I’m a worthless piece of scum!
Don’t always know where these thoughts and feelings are from!

They say you win and lose some!
Mum is the word and the word is mum!
Am I just a worthless bum?

On my imaginary guitar these sad invisible strings I’ll strum!
I may always smile and seem happy but internally always feeling glum!
Can’t understand why inside my head I always feel this way like I’ve become just so numb!
© BDawg90