I'm sorry I'ma disappointment
I'm not put together like you envisioned
Sorry that I failed, that I'm still failing
I wish you were proud of me, I want you to be
But I guess you can't, not now, probably not ever
It's my fault you feel scared of the future
Scared that when you're gone I can't survive
I'm so sorry that my life is such a mess
Sorry that I'm not surviving enough for your peace of mind
I apologize for not being put together, for not being a proper adult
For making you feel like a failure, like you did something wrong
I didn't mean to make you feel like a bad father, feel like it's your fault
I just want you to not worry, to not stress over the future
I regret a lot of things in my life, a lot of choices I made
Opportunities that I missed, chances I didn't take
I apologize for not thinking of you enough
Not realizing that my choices affected you to
I'm so sorry that it took me this long to realize how you felt
Realize the damage I caused, the turmoil you felt
Even though I'm a total disappointment, a setback
I wanna do better, I'm gonna do better
I'll at least try to do better, try to make you feel at ease
But I know my word isn't anything, my word is like the wind
Still...
I am really sorry
© orchid1948