If these walls could speak, What would they tell?
Would they reveal all of my secrets I dare not say? Would they give you reasons why you shouldn’t trust a word I’d say?
If these walls could speak, they tell you my entire story. The lonely boy inside of me who has been around since before his mothers wound. Came to be born in a world he doesn’t quite understand fully. A day he was sent for a purpose but hasn’t fulfilled it by now fully. “What could these walls say if they spoke”, I wondered. Would I stay and ponder? For as long as I live without figuring it all out. What exactly is his plan with me by now?
If the walls could speak back to me could they reveal how to fix this hole. This emptiness inside. I need to be whole again and yet I don’t know how to fill it all up. Would the walls reveal to me the entire truth? How to love myself first, or who could I trust enough to deserve all of mine.
If only the walls can respond back to me. I dreamed they reveal why is the boy inside of me so empty and in distress. To find true love his entire life without breaking a sweat.
I demand these walls speak to me now and share how will I find her for me, and also love my other half as my other have would also love me. Love is indeed a mystery.
If only the walls could speak to me, but the reality is they simply cannot. I’m just the same boy inside I’ve always been. In a dark deep place hoping to see light at the end of the tunnel someday. If only the walls could speak to me.

© Johnny Cigars