The worst thing you can do is lie to yourself. When I look in the mirror I see someone that needs help. But outwardly I appear that I never miss a step. Seem strong and independent but I'm walking a tight rope between life and death. I hide amongst the shadows , but am visible to all. Talk as if I have all the answers , always right and never wrong. But in reality I don't have no clue of what's going on. My days are spent secluded unproductively at home. But home is not my home , I'm a free loading guest to long , on top of not contributing my addictions have control of my mind , just a self loathing pathetic asshole. Who ruins every thing I touch and love , lord please dont leave me all alone. I've single handedly taken the love right out this home. I wake up every day , wondering why god opened my eyes again. The one person that's for me , loves and supports me , I hurt the most. I...