Yeah,
I'm still checking in on them
Still I manage myself to reply their messages
Still I make sure that I don't disappoint them

Yeah,
They still think that I'm always available
They still think that I'm okay

They don't know
Or maybe they don't notice
Or maybe they don't even care
The signs that I have shown

Yeah,
I don't tell them that I'm broken
I don't tell them that I'm dying
I don't tell them that this emotion is too overwhelming and slowly dragging me deeper into sadness

I have shown the signs
If they are aware
They should've seen how my texts are different than they used to be
They should've seen how my eyes swollen, not because of sleep deprivation but because the tears that falling without any reasons
If they look me closely
They should've wondered where all the long scratches on my left arm are from
But yeah, I'm unnoticed

I want to shout
I want to yell
I want to scream
But all I can do is just faking a smile and whispering "I'm alright"

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