You tell me that your happy
like it's some fucking joke
but when I speak my mind I'm silenced
is why my heart is fucking broke

and though my tears also fall in silence,
you can see these scars that are on my face
I don't think you understand the violence,
of these demons taking place,

so while your somewhere without me happy
I'm in tug a war with evil and an empty space.

So if I wrote a song about you
does it mean that I still want you
somewhere deep down in my heart,
have I not already seen that
your not coming back
or somehow have I missed that part.

Now it's up to me to close my eyes
and imagine life is good,
but my concience sees regardless
sometimes I'm wishin that yours could.

The dark side of me,
compares to nothing of what I
really hoped you'd see,
then there is this pain daily
draining every part of me.

I'm desperately.

Holding back important peaces
of my life all together,
it's just my dignity you've seen
all torn and weathered.

making little videos or
whatever it takes to please you,
just for you to leave again
open my wounds
and watch me bleed through.

That was just me trying,
anything to keep from dying,
I'm sick of always crying,
that's why I break shit
that's why you hate this,
and I hate this,
we're both at each end of the plyers,
I know we're both getting tired.

I Can't stop the clock this time
but it seems to be working better
getting better Everytime
getting better than it's Knott,
and getting tighter on my throat
the more I swing it will never stop.

See, can't you see
There's only one thing,
that I haven't done
and heard would be
the best for me.
I can't just let it go
or giving up becomes my destiny

I'll continue to walk out here
where nobody else is around
and try my best not to get stuck
in the dream that's kept me in the ground

Sarah J Laird Taylor

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