Stuck in my mind,

can't go nowhere thats far,

I can't remember the life I lived that was in the past,

My body and my mind is so distant,

Don't know how to escape from this prison,

Everything right now is so upside down,

How can I free my mind from all these overloading thoughts,

it's hard for me to breathe where my body and my mind is stuck,

there so far apart,

Not sure what to do when there is something missing,

I can't figure it out,

It's like the past continues to hurt me,

And the more I think about it the more I Cry,

I can't breathe,

I can't breathe,

I can't breathe,

I can't breathe,

I can't breathe,

I can continue saying that over and over again because I'm stuck and I still can't breathe,

How can I live in the moment that's supposed to be happy when I'm broken,

and the past continues to haunt me,

Afraid to admit that I have a problem,

How can I be all right if everything's not all right,

me hating myself is probably why I can't trust nobody else,

Trust me I'm doing the best I can and pick myself back up piece by piece,

I'm just living my life,

And doing all I can the way I want to,

I'm confused but I'll know I'll make it through cuz I always do,

I will outweigh the pain no matter what I have to do,

No I don't want to die I just have a hard time living,

I'm so used to being alone,

I don't know what it's like to have someone around,

I would let people in my mind but I just can't because every time I let somebody in my mind they always use my mind for something that they want or need,

I'm just trying to survive through all the pain,

I think of myself as shattered glass,

I wish people could see the pain that I've seen,

All the times that I've spent not being me,

I'm not always happy where I stand,

Everybody expects me to be okay but how can I be okay if I'm not okay,

I hate my life so much sometimes because I can't get these voices out of my head,

they grow louder and louder and I get terrified more and more,.

I wear my heart on my sleeve,

this world seems like it's going to end but if it was how come it hasn't ended yet,

I keep to myself all the time,

Because of what goes on inside my head,

I'm lucky if I only have two friends that care for me,

I need my life to change in an instant,

I'm not who I'm supposed to be,

I just want everything to change,

all the voices in my head has to go away,

the people in my life has to treat me right,

I deserve better than what I get,

I want love and happiness in my life,

I want everything that is good and nothing that is bad,

because it seems that everything in my life is nothing but karma,

And I hate it,

I just wish people would like me for me and not who they want me to be,

©Alexa812