"Not that I didn't receive
The calls that they had given
It's just that I am distracted
Of my desires, trauma,
And weakness

Not that I didn't hear
All their whisphers of caring counsel
It's just that it's hard to handle myself
Being indecisive
I'm shaped by the hot and cold people -
Impulsive
Passive, Dismissive , Aggressive
Chaotic household and dysfunctional roof...