#WritcoPoemPrompt48
What is sadness? What is melancholy?Is both of them the same? What is frustration? What is Hatred? What is envy? What is confusion? What does giving up means?Can I really not differentiate between them, or am I just overwhelmed with a mixture of all of them? All these times, what was I really dreaming of, when at the end it just took a button to push and everything vanished. Is that frustration that I felt after that?Did sadness and melancholy started building up in me cause I thought everything is shattered now? Did I started hating myself and everyone else cause I thought they are the reason why? Didn't I started envying other people's dreams and expectations and hope and faith cause I realised I have none? Didn't I gave up on myself the day I tried to be perfect when I'm not?
This world can't see my shattered castles, stolen treasures, famine running through hormones and insufficiency of dopamine. All they could see was a lazy person always scrolling away aimlessly, a lazy person who cried in every correction they gave and said "way too sensitive", a person who never spoke because of attitude. When my mentality was completely shattered into pieces....... all because I wanted to be perfect, a correctionless life because I wanted to make people happy and not angry by my mistakes.....
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