The pain I want ,
The deep darkness I am starving,
No more sorrow melodies that
Brings unbreakable shedding tears of mine ,
Why I am , why I am deep
Down the well of heart ,
Need the pangness to flow out of me ,
Its like my
Both heart and soul wants
Days without sun and nights without moon ,
I am dying because I am alive ,
Maybe the death is peace ,
Maybe be death is angel ,
Maybe be death is my happiness,
But still I seeking for the hope ,
To suffer and to weep wearly
And to once again stand with
Victory of conquering rationality,
I see the darkness of night ,
I see the darkness of my heart ,
I see the darkness of world ,
I need the whole shutdown ,
The true holy dark,
Now I am neither smile nor weep,
Neither myself nor listning others,
Neither conscious nor unconscious ,
Neither confident nor frighten ,
But now I am starts to forget everthing
The knowledge I learned ,
The people I missed ,
The god I worshipped ,
The place I enjoyed ,
The love I experienced ,
Nothing left but my body
Still exsists ,Still with
Pseudo smile and health ,
Being breathing the darkness is soulful,
Not the life and light I need ,
But the sweetness of creepy night that I need ,
Now I don’t wish for light ,
As I never been prisoned by delightful dark ,
Oh God , I pray , I wish , I promise
If u give me pure darkness , in return
Let me lend you my life purpose.

- Z
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