What I am about to say is,
I would appreciate it
if you don't take it personally,
use to have a bad experience
with friendship since high school
is not something to do with you.
Dear introverted ex-boyfriend,
I grew up bad at making friends,
and bad at having romantic relationships.
I used to have best friends in my life
but, they were neurotypicals.
Dear Introverted Ex-boyfriend,
ever since I was a child
I actually can relate to you,
due to not being good at small talk
I didn't communicate a lot growing up.
Dear introverted ex-boyfriend,
no one told me
I was diagnosed with a disability
all my life, I had been behaving
normally and typically how,
neurotypicals behave in society.
Dear introverted ex-boyfriend,
I used to imitate other people
ever since I was born,
didn't know why
you feel threatened by
how I behaved as a neurotypical.
Dear Introverted Ex-boyfriend,
as I didn't tell you that
I had a conflicting zodiac sign,
that makes me indecisive and unstable at times.
Dear Introverted Ex-boyfriend,
I am sorry for needing your help every time
as you might not recognize,
I don't have a strong sense of direction.
That explains why I need guidance
everywhere I go,
I actually can relate to you
having transportation problems,
because I don't have driving skills
to drive myself everywhere I go
that explains why I always need
transportation from my parents.
Dear introverted ex-boyfriend,
as you might not recognized
I haven't been self-sufficient
can't do things on my own,
ever since I was born.
Dear Introverted Ex-boyfriend,
ever since my mom
had met all my childhood needs
it becomes hard for me to
let go and move on without
my mom in my life,
I can't take the risk
to cut ties with my mom
just keep you in my love life.
without my mom's protection
not have her to keep me safe
from societal harm,
I don't know what to do
still do things independently
still take responsibility at home.
Without my parent's supervision
but, I still can't travel by myself
without my parents due to not
have a strong sense of direction,
as you might not recognize
I was raised by my mom
more than my dad
because he usually was
emotionally unavailable
not have time for me or my mom
I had my mom's fearful side
I had my dad's avoidant side.
Dear introverted ex-boyfriend,
that make me fearful-avoidant
due to my family's culture.
I was used to being a spoiled child
who lived a spoiled life,
haven't been busy my whole life
until I start my first day in high school,
used to uphold the responsibility and
independence between classes and after school.
Dear Introverted Ex-boyfriend,
why you don't recognize how
trapped I used to be seventeen years ago?
my memory span was clouded,
just can't remember being treated poorly
or badly or being bullied online.
Dear introverted ex-boyfriend,
why do you have to complain about me
to other people and other of your best friends?
you and your best friends,
can't take me out of your life
because you used to fill the void in my life,
when no one ever hung out with me
outside of school before
when you appear in my life
you take me everywhere,
that no one ever takes me to go.
Without you in my life,
when you break up with me
it gives me separation anxiety,
and spiral into depression
you and your best friends
have reached my breaking point,
to the point where I had lost patience
and can't control how I behave.
When I first met you,
thought you were a gentleman
but, the way you complain about me
affect how I treated you.
You are not being careful
what you tell other people
about me,
the more you complain
about me, it affects
how I treated you poorly.
You should be aware,
how you complain to people about me.


-Laura So

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