Practiced apologies dont sit well with me
When I scream how I feel
The sting wont let you be
Be cautious this is how I heal

When I look beyond my reflection
Past the green that paints my eyes
Know ive laid aside my frustration
And stood over myself watching as parts of me die

Pain echoes between the words we yell
Expectations leave our acceptance soaked
The moisture will make my rationality swell
We hate the chaos we created alongside the drugs we've smoked

Chewed up remorse
Is as delicious as you'd think
Cold and thick of course
Lingering is its nasty stink

Soggy regrets don't seem to help
This is not your fate
Its Not even the hand you were dealt
I can't stomach anymore self hate

When I say I am sorry
I mean it so much
I wish it meant dont worry
This is the end of my anger and such

I mean to change every fight
Become the me we both look for
I want to be happy to lay with me at night
I always take Three steps back further from that door

I refuse to lose my one true friend
I dont even want to be lost again
I should never choose my anger to defend
I promise I'll do better I swear on this pen

Please forgive me each time I fail
Please believe me when I say I am so close
Help me throw out the parts that went stail
And love every bit of me you have chose!