There I go again,
feeling the feeling, and
thinking the thought and
reminiscing so much about years ago

coming into life again
the pain of yesterday
nothing seems to lift again
I'm even scared to pray from where I'll gain
all strength to reign
and as i aim

searching encouragement i fine none
no answer at all
who'll lift me from this strange spirit
First the man inside me
now the son of Jezebel outside me

Every one of the experience feels different
enslaving me to anger and pain
hatred and bitterness
more for myself than for them

Every harassment is bitter sweet
I feel their touch in the scalp of my hair
lovely feeling chaining me down
coming down to my breast as he sucks what's meant for my husband and fruits
as his disgusting hand screw through my thigh
funny enough, unlike before, I met this one in church
I couldn't slap nor report him to the authorities but God saw all that transpired, how ladies even decently dressed are molested and mocked.


How do I become free,
from this bandage and enslavement?
of sin,lust and matubation
why didn't I run when he came?
abstaining is the only way to be free

Do I still have God and his spirit in me?
though I know he'll forgive me but
this spirit keeps talking and
I'm losing it yet,
I'll just say yes and keep praying....

that's the only way out
let's take heed
he that has ears,hear.
© Iyetiri Blessing