I can’t speak.
Not without making you cry.
I can’t listen.
Not without you waiting for a remark.
I can’t look at you.
Not without you wondering if I’m looking behind you.
I can’t admire you.
Not without being judged for staring.
I can’t forgive.
Not without you worrying what strings are attached
I can’t remind.
Not without you thinking I’m judging.
I can’t be sad.
Not without you worrying it’s because of you.
I can’t be happy.
Not without you wondering why I’m not upset.

I can’t be happy.
I can’t be sad.
I can’t remember.
I can’t forget.
I can’t be amazed.
I can’t adore.
I can’t listen.
I can’t speak.

BUT YOU LOVE ME?

Maybe I just want to be 100% honest and open with you.
Maybe I just enjoy listening to everything you say.
Maybe it feels like I’m looking at you for the first time, every time I look at you.
Maybe I just love everything about you and will never get bored looking no matter how long I stare.
Maybe I just understand that people make mistakes.
Maybe sometimes you just don’t understand how what you did makes someone feel from a different point of view.
Maybe I’m just sad because I want to give you the universe but alls I can offer is my love.
Maybe I’m just happy, because for once I feel loved.
Maybe just maybe I can’t speak….
Because you have me speechless.

Maybe it’s because I do love you and I’m in shock to have someone as amazing as you to love me in return.

for my Monalyssa 143
© MistEerie(Shilo)