(I wrote this, as I do all of my writings, only as I was feeling it. written in 2 parts, three days apart. I hope it inspires anyone to rethink suicide and know that there is always hope)

I feel so depressed
each day brings more stress
my house is a mess
so sloppy I'm dressed
my hair, a rat's nest
No strength in me left
enough of life's test
to die would be best
I'd make it painless
to all I confess
I'm sorry I guess
my soul don't detest
in peace let me rest...........

....... 3 days later .............

Now a lost soul I fly
at my grave you all cry
asking each other why
I wanted to die
I cannot reply
my heartless soul sighs
I thought I'd feel high
real truth is denied
with nowhere to hide
regretting my plight
forever in Fright
eternally night
removed from God's sight.