My heart is bleeding, my body is trembling.
The hatred I feel can't be taken away, I have been emotionally wounded, physically damaged.
This isn't the man I knew, this isn't the man I came to love.
Who is this man then?
I want to scream but scared he would kill me.

I found myself fracturing beneath his first.
Glistening with secret pains, I am soaked in his venom, becoming canvas for the art of abuse.
Aching bones, aching to rebuild themselves.
He told me he loved me, but now everything is vanity.
Nothing is real, all fake and dead lies.

Every night look like a nightmare .
Beaten like an animal, treated like tag.
With his close fist that felt like a loaded gun all around my body.
is this the man I knew?
is this the man that gave me his promises?

I'm left silent, I'm left in pain.
his strength overpowering me, they slay me to the ground.
I sat alone in the old dark room, I knew he would return soon.
I really wish people would know how much pains I'm in.
sleep is far from me.
I'm dying don't think I can hold on.
© Juliana world