Some days I wake and wonder why I ask why. other ones I wish motherfuckers would just die. Alone I stare this evil spoon in front of my eyes. everything at the same time nothin with in sight within my view. There is no spoon see , just a big sea of deceit and lies, all throughout the years I watched my friends die one at a time,this mistake I made an error likely fatal to define all the rest of my days. why I feel the same as the rest and where's the threats I seen there's major stress, too much depressed my worth feels less , life tackles the fate, I slowly overtime I turn becoming all the things that I hate, a cost of my survival surely means to me you must be the prey. be fucked be ruined ,it's me here for you now, I am the leech you portray. these actions I do flip around the way they see me,then love turns into hate. lost alot and taken more, I'm now thinkin maybe you shouldn't stay, try and fight the fight that I can't win I hate existing this way. I have to have it,when I want it, need it man I don't wanna stay, without God can't ask the will I don't have so can make a good change. I go solo I'm the lone man I am every member "my gang". memories fade back, the times of mine I had I felt was in place. what's the use, a life inside my mind, the end we all go away. bout to lose control and when I do I think you all better pray! pray it's quick or that I miss, but I won't, like your blood I will spray, there you have it off my chest, harmless little words I say, hoping they were heard, and it's all the time I think the fuck have I been cursed? I try it never works. a better outlook while on earth, cause the hypocrites say the day I die that Im sure to burn. the same evil minds manipulate eternal pain deserved , blows my mind they act all high and mighty, when they're lower than dirt, twist and mixed with lies, decieve,recieve the access wallet/purse. fucking mother fuckers out there really are a piece of work, always got a story, of a situation never heard, so fuck it all in every way I seen evil mislead it's church! You know your acts of pedo rapists, thus it's nothing that your worth! O'why O' god ones I describe, fall through the cracks proceed to hurt . stolen innocents from youth the kids on earth who do not deserve .
. fading ,wading to our necks in bullshit how we reap the sow, panicked and confused, you stand my shoes then point the way to go, could try, you'll never find a resting bottom to this rabbit hole, walking on my path youll see the red flags and see they see no hope, busted being ...