As the days were unending, so were the pains.
Emotions lost,
Nothing to be felt,
all numb,
Feelings disappeared into the unknown.

It all feels new even though it's old.
Tired of it all, because it's exhausting.

I'm locked in my head, were I can't seem to come out even if I want to.
It seems as if I'm caged in a dark hole.
Were nothing seems to be visible.

Oh my beloved, you have tried to take me out, but it seems impossible.

I'm scared that I would unintentionally drag you into my cage.
I'm scared that you might get caged with me, even though we both don't want it.
I'm scared that I might destroy you even though I never meant to.

Tried pushing you away but you just seem to keep clinging onto me.

A dark soul, I have got
Where no lights could burst through, to help us in this journey of ours.

oh my beloved, I have to let go before, I completely destroy you.
So your bright soul, wouldn't become as dark as mine.
© kaya N