Those pathetic little notes I left in his Instagram chats.

Permission granted
Debate when my heart is safe
Get in control with my inner emotions
Let me know when I'm being too irrational cut me off when I forget to think before i speak Analyze my speech tell me I'm erratic this is why i hired you, you guys are in charge of my body's weaknesses when i longer have control over my mind. Can i be honest im starting to like this new lifestyle of mine. So its your job that i get overwhelmed with depression. Every time i befriend someone take over and scare them away. Remind me that people never stay . And I should sleep off the overbearing pain while it eats me away. I thought of cosmetic surgery call me names say I look terrible and I'm a mistake. Impulsory wreaks all around me . Its my decision if I'll keep these men in charge.