l don't know what happened to me whether I was crazy or just lonely,
all I know is I was sick of being deceived, mistreated, and unloved.
Then you came along...
I don't know why. All I know is that I felt a connection on our first chat,
something I had never felt before which at first made me feel uneasy, stupid and even a bit childish,
which made me go through all kinds of emotions as we chatted and began finding we had a lot in common.
I felt like we had known each other from an unknown past.

At first I was scared and a part of me wanted to ignore and just believe that you were just someone who was playing a game being,
that we were both behind the screen.
I was thinking I was crazy to have the feelings I was beginning to have for you.
I was really upset with myself and became very angry with the way I was feeling.
I didn't want to admit to you or anyone else that I was falling for someone I had never actually met.

I thought I was becoming insane myself damn it.
I tried to fight these feelings off but they were just too powerful for me to ignore!
l tried to convince myself that this can't be for real;
that you couldn't REALLY be feeling the same as I was...
I was going insane!!!
No matter how hard I tried.
I just could not fight the feelings
I was having for you.
Then the night came when you were expressing
how you were beginning to feel which I tried not to believe,
because I was scared of being disa...
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