I told myself what I felt was wrong.
That I was wrong to do fall in love with a girl
That I was wrong to want to kiss her lips
I was close by, very close yet so far from her
I've got boys in mind
I've got her running wild in my head
Her body is a masterpiece
I wanna trace 'em with my tongue
When she's all dressed up
I could still see what's underneath
Her voice is maddening to my ears
My nipples are sore just watching her
I knew right then and there
I was crazy about her
Didn't want no harm near her
Her body is always calling to me
I don't want her to feel weird around me
So I steal glances at her
I want to kiss her, touch her
But I'm too scared she will flee
So I hold to those little moment
But they are not so little to me
The way she holds my hands
The way her brown eyes shines in the sun
The way her pink lips curves when she calls my name
And when I see her with that dude
It's like I'm hit by a huge wave
It's hard to look right in her eyes
Terrified she would see through my eyes
How I feel about her
I'm afraid of not being who I truly am
Fearful to let the everyone see the real me
I'm frightened that I'm a part of a family
A family that doesn't give up on one of theirs
A community to call my home
I want to see her today, tomorrow, and the day after
But she choose another till the end of time
I feel my heart been ripped out of my chest
With her it's like a million shot of adrenaline
Her smile, her eyes, her lips, her scent
Nothing is perfect without her
I'm stuck waiting for the time
Waiting for the right place
To profess my love to her
And tell her it will be
Alright to stay with me
That it will be okay
To love me in return
I am what I think I am
But most times I don't want to be
I'm petrified of the part of me that makes me. me
She struck me hard like a lightening bolt
And I don't think I'll ever come back
There's no one better all along
No one that can hold me like she does


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