Sometimes I wonder,
Why my heart is so full of confusion?
It's easy for my heart to make me hate my most favourite person,
For whom , my heart is ready to die anytime without any question.

Maybe all this is the doing of my most favourite person.
Maybe my heart is not involve in this game of puzzle.
Where I'm searching for all my answer.

My mind always asks me a question,
Who should I blame-
My heart : who hate me
Or Him : who made him (to give reason to hate him ).

I know he ( my most favourite person) is not a bad person,
His heart is full of kindness,
It is just his some actions
That gave me all reason to run far away from his mansion.

What should I do ?
Can anyone give me a solution?
I can't unite my relation .
I can't curses him for his actions.
He is like a God to me whom I always worship.

Maybe this is the reason,
God made him that way to create a difference ?
As there's no comparison between God & mere human.

Maybe this is God new way to give me punishment
As he gave me everything a person desires to make it in real even my most favourite person.

But I give all the credit to my most favourite person,
Before that I was never aware of his this side
Which God showed me now-years,
To make me realise that the worship place is only reserve for him
Cause except him nobody is perfect.

I know it's all are my excuses
Just to give my heart a little eases.

But why some people behave like this ?
Can't they fear of God before hurting someonelse ?

I'm afraid to lose him ,
And I know he'll surely get his punishment.

It gave me hard time to make my decision.
I don't know
How to handle this situation.
Where my heart can't even imagine to let anything bad happen ( to him ).
&
My mind don't want to live with him for a second.

I want to ask you all.
What'll you do if your in my position?


©farasha_