LIFE CHANGING

I'm starting to wonder if I'm just suppose to remain cold, no empathy, nor sympathy, just numb to my soul,

At one time in my life, I enjoyed embracing every negative role, it wasn't necessarily my choice, It was that I had to survive the streets of Oakland,California at 7, being a run away from home,

Crimes from selling crack, to pimping, became the format for my mold, But I also learned quickly, while being overly exposed to the G-codes, a violent streak you must hone,

If you want to survive or continue to grow amongst the wolves, that's family and foe,

You do away with the emotional.
You don't disclose your honeycomb.
You never gloat, or show boat.

Now the formal for all I've cemented in me I've just exposed,

Today October 19, 2021. My son is 17, and I must admit it's been a long road. And it's a lot about me he doesn't even know,

When he was 4, I met him for the first time and that's when I began to change my goals,

I had never had a pinch of faith in me, to even phantom the strength to dream big, nevertheless let go, of all the street in me that took a hold,

But one day he made me reflect heavily on being emotional, because he cried a lot, and I had always be told, " men don't suppose to cry, its for the weak, or sissy's, I'll beat your ass if it happens again boy," I was always scolded,

And one day he had an episode, and I looked at him with frustration, and I pulled him close, I told him, "crying is not manly, and I don't want to see another tear roll," he was about 10, the same age I commitment to the streets, already have killed and been fullie criminally exposed,

But my son spoke, respectfully back to me and low, " dad why is crying wrong? I should be able to express how I want," and what he said, made me proud of him,

Furthermore, apologetic and inspired me to atone for all that I've let in me, knowingly and unknown, that's when #MYCHANGE in life started grow….


©ByStanSteel63rd10/19/21

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© By,Stan Steel63rd