The realization was too clear like glass I looked right through it without understanding you, or maybe I hoped that if I didn't address it it would tie you to me.

Clever and terrified I closed my ears and eyes hoping that you'd forget you had to go.

Even then I tried to tie myself to you hoping you wouldn't forget me, because if you forgot then what was the point in my existence...

Somewhere along the way I forgot that feeling.

The pain twisted my eyes and made me hunger for the things I knew you did not want for me.

I lied to myself willingly, I drowned out your voice and told myself that becoming this was a natural order,all flowers wilt no matter their beauty or their will to breath, so why should I continue to...