I will offer you my vestiges and my vertigo
Torturing stillness
Wisdom sometimes crumbles me
Since I was born with this hole in my heart
Like a giant sink in which my troubles are emptied
And that my paradise was horror
My love, will you know how to love my hells?
When happiness becomes a sin of optimism
And because more than the moon and the sun
The eclipse fascinates and troubles me
Like a vigorous insanity
And in the ocean of Being
Always, I stay at the bottom of the wave
Between storm and calm
Where my enlarged soul dreams of being one with yours
Will you know how to sail on my downpours
Through all these stranded ships of melancholy?
I who love you with so much ferocity
I who love you with all the weight of my imperfections
Me who love you with this other Me than Me
Affective meteorology
I turn pain into mystery
Before the Poetry of this world vanishes
But every end holds a promise
And some bankruptcies are fruitful
And all that is not dead, my damn-god beautiful angel
Is only a fucking mask on the ocean of Time
My Love, let’s heal from all illusions
Cherish the torments of our souls and the shipwrecks inhabiting our hearts
Because we are on board of a ship that we cannot desert
Let's visit one by one these mystical secrets
These enchanting temples where our dreams bathe
But you should know that unless the hand of a dead man
No mystery will ever be truly solved
But while I was dead among the living
A blinding and unexpected light
Different from the worst security
Suddenly animates me
Like suns hanging on your fingers
Enlightening my darkest dreams
Forbidden and fascinated at the same time
I'm looking to own it forever
Annex it to my ancient terrors
And like an infernal Faith
The memory of an old cell awakens in me
The memory of a memory that never really existed
What is this sanctuary that I abandoned in the past?
My unfinished prayers pursue me while in me
I don't know what is this doing and undoing sky in me
An unbilievable spark
Making words lose their usefulness and making them almost vulgar
And basking in happiness like no other
Because emerging from darkness
A frightening and delicious shiver takes hold of me
He tastes like eternity
Like a nap with God
A happy rage disintegrates and fortifies me at the same time
Am I bewitched
I like to believe ...
What is this truth before which I find myself?
I ignore it and only know the joy that precedes it
Joy, fear and madness
Can my soul conceive and generate so much light beyond darkness?
Your madness guides me like a lantern in the night
Through the winding and tortuous paths of my upset mind
And it fills me with this intense happiness
That it becomes painful
But I keep marrying each of your nuances,
My soul mate, my fucking Siamese heart
Against each of my doubts
And my disguised certainties
And refuse to give up the only certainty that is worth
The one that no one can weaken
That something is still there
Waiting patiently, beyond my hells
Beyond Death
Far beyond all reality
The certainty of a love that will survive us.


© Birdy'