I can't get over losing my son,
to face reality than I'm no longer his mum.
that just kills me deep inside
to the point where I just want to stay indoors and hide.

Away from the reality of my life,
Away from the pain, the suffering and the strife,
is now how I live my life.

Just me forever now on my own,
just trying to escape the feeling of being alone.
I lost my only son
And now nobody ever calls my phone
I have a bad feeling I'm going to have to live my life all on my own.
forgetting it all by smoking some gear and a stone. sometimes I feel I deserve to be on my own.

I just want to give up and die,
but instead I sit here and get high,
Now my whole life has become one big lie.

I take responsibility that I no longer have my only son, and now I am no longer called his mum ,
I just lost him because my actions were naive and dumb.

It's all Because I made a huge mistake.
I now have to live with that burden , that's such a heavy weight

I have to carry it all alone.
there's no longer anyone that can help at the end of the phone.

At just 15 years old being talked into a abortion hearing that baby's cost a fortune.
And the cost of that choice
ive had to live with for years
wishing now that I was never here, defiantly sick of using gear.

At least I feel I can be honest on here.
that certainly hasn't been the case for many a year.

ive lost my only son
And now I just live in total fear.
just wishing and praying that my son was here.

knowing I need to sit there and have a Good long cry.
definitely to stop myself getting high , I choose the drugs because I could pretend my life was ok
but instead it made me just want to sleep the day away.





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