The first time I heard his voice was when I was nineteen, he did something foul and had to pay with his slpeen. Anyone can kill but your conscience is a bitch, you have to stay strong or you will be a snitch. Of course on yourself and anyone else who are involved, this is the main reason why cases with more than one defendant are solved.....more easily than others. Yea, it's a mother. You have to find a way to distract yourself from the guilt and pain, maybe like take a long run and jog home. To think about it, maybe even write a blog or maybe even a poem.:/