"Close your eyes to your pains",
My therapist taught me;
"Numb your body to its effects;
pains are what makes you human"
Am I? I mean...really human?

I see faces carrying grocery of smiles
And rolling trollies of laughter.
I see the neighbour's child
exactly my age mate
surrounded with warm shawls.

Her infectious cheeks distributing joy
round their half- empty dinner table.

I watch from the window of my room-
the stained glass a replica of my stained soul.
I watch, with a belly full of pills..
eyes tired of fighting...
lips fighting back bewraying tears.

Every morning, her smiles plays in my hazy...