The deep darkness , the deep pain ,
Accompanied by loneliness , trapped in a chain ,
I hate myself more than you do ,
But why do people hate me ? I've got no clue.


Being possessive is my habit , but a sign of affection ,
I'm again hated ! Damn itt !! I can never find perfection ,
"Everyone hated me , since the day I was born "


But trust me , I'm not a bad person ,
Sill I'm hated for some reason ,
Trust me , All I ever wanted was love ,
But got none ... hello ? everyone's gone ??


Was always being told , that I'm wrong ,
I'm too tired of "changing" and "being strong" ,
You don't know , how much I hate myself ,
You know , a long ago , to change me , I killed myself .


I crave for death ,
People don't know my depth ,
I don't even know why I've still got left breath ,
The ..the ..pain , bruises , I hide beneath .


Oh ..how much I want to die ,
But can't , so I cry .. cry .. cry !!!
Why me ? why ?


I hate me , I'm scared ,
For the way I was funny and loving , nobody cared ,
I know , I can never be accepted ,
I'm sorry , I shouldn't have expected .



I know , I'm not good ,
But if I was loved as a child , I would ,
In the competition of others and me hating me ... I win .


© _moonlight