i lost my track.
and my faith.
prayers were no more said.
a mask of holiness
i wore.
they believed me.

laughing off the pain,
the sorrow,
and the brokenness.
it was a hilarious scene.
it had me dying with laughter.

only one step off the platform
and i could have been only a memory.
iam figuring out if i should regret or not.
maybe i do, maybe i don't.
let the future decide.

night sky was the savior.
the stars gave me butterflies
which no one else could.
and made me feel things ...