IMBALANCE
BY C.WYNTER

It hit me like a ton of bricks and now I'm left shaking,
Sadness covers me in silence, stuck in a tomb of my own making,
My mind attacks itself and reminds me of my failings,
And I become a victim of intrusive thoughts, now I'm falling,
You should just end it now it says, it's much better than this,
Peace within the end, don't worry it says, it is such bliss,
It's just you alone now, if you end you will not be missed,
And I become drunk on the words, poison depressions kiss,
My Mind playing tricks again, broken I let out a cry,
It's always the same things, the struggle, no matter how I try,
Saddened by my attempts, I'm left with the question why?,
Does it even matter? it says, and I fold, depression sure is sly,
End it now it says, it's so easy, just let go and just lose,
You never was strong anyway, life is overrated, now chose,
And I am tired, so tired of fighting, so tired of the abuse,
That only leaves me hollow, an empty person, a heart, confused,
What am I here for? what is my purpose in this life?,
Why does depression haunt me? giving nothing but strife,
But still i find myself fighting back, like cement I go through the emotions inside,
Trying my best from sinking into my tormented and imbalanced mind.


© C.Wynter